We sat watching the stars from the porch with our wine bottle and glasses. Discussed the farm, school, daycare, IBI and just sat quietly.
Out of the blue comes "I thought about letting my hair grow until the end of the mth". He's getting it cut this afternoon and he's shaggy. "I think I'll shave off the beard too and look 30 again". He's 40, and not a wht hair anywhere, and yes the beard makes him look closer to his age. So I leaned over and rubbed his head and beard (he's an oversized cat - you can get the world for a back scratch/rub :) ) "Hard done by are we, feeling old tonight" His stomach is upset and he's coughing from smoke inhilation and he's very tired. It's been a long season. "Am so, You do realize I'm not going anywhere, don't you?" That was Ed. (totally unexpected and I hadn't told him about this thread) "I know" Me, and got go myself a kiss and went back to watching the stars with my Man.
He tucked me into bed later - MOOG!!! I went to sleep.
We don't "grope" but touch regularly. A quick kiss, a hug, a back scratch (me to him), a come watch this with me - pull onto the sofa - (him tugging me - since I don't watch much tv). A quick dance around the kitchen etc. Just little stuff.
I dated a guy for 2 1/2 yrs in Univ. He was my first real boyfriend. The one that lasted more than a couple of mths and a lot of other.... He had the words, but you never trusted them. You can't just have words, you have to be shown, I have to feel like I belong and I'm important.
Ed does that without even trying.
Sheri