I DO care, and I do feel the emotion part of it, but the emotion comes later. But it never takes over.
It's like I'm in complete control and I can't help it. But it's only in intense situations or when I'm under a lot of pressure. In the everyday situation, I'm not that way at all.
It's made me uncomfortable more times than I can count because people will always ask me, "Aren't you upset at all??" And I think, "Well yeah, but if I get upset right now, I won't be able to do what I need to do, whether it's getting the right help, or figuring out what to do, or whatever." But I think even if I tried to get upset in an intense situation, I couldn't do it. My body just won't let go until things calm down.
It's weird.